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Glucose Dust.

"I couldn't put any inflection in my voice.  It was like I was speaking while in a trance or something," I said, recounting last night's low to Chris.

"I know.  You always sound like that when you're really low.  That was the worst one I've seen in a long time."

"Worst one I've felt, in ages, too."

Officially rotten number.

This is the second low in as many weeks that's made me feel like I was sliding too close to something dangerous.  And as I've mentioned before, it's the middle-of-the-night lows that feel like out-of-body experiences.  (Thank goodness for hyphens, no?) It's like I'm not even in there, my words just coming out on unaffected autopilot, my body going through whatever survival motions are required but the adrenaline isn't even in place to make me feel human.

Robot lows.  

I woke up this morning and my mouth tasted like glucose tabs and toothpaste (product of the post-low bathroom visit where I brush my teeth and wonder how many brain cells I took out in the process of this hypoglycemic event), a sweet, minty hybrid that tastes like failure.

These lows have happened a bit more lately than they have in months past, as I'm trying to keep my A1c in the range it's in, and they're knocking me for a serious loop.  (And no Dexcom on last night because the sensor wilted off late in the afternoon, and I'm still dealing with itchy rash issues.  Hopefully will find a solution to that soon.)  The hangovers from these wee morning lows ache a bit more, and they take time to taper off, leaving the morning after a bit foggy and thick.  Currently running on glucose dust and the odd avocado.  (What can I say - they're tasty, those avocado things.)

Tomorrow will be better.  Today has an air of "suck" to it, but tomorrow will be better. 


Kerri, as usual you give words to feelings in such a beautifully validating way. I'm en route to a long day of work after having an early morning 38 - really! Same #!- and reading this was just the comfort I needed to keep going. I'm sorry you share this low hangover, and also do grateful you but it to good prosey use.

I HATE lows like that! The memory and feelings of being outside of both your body and your mind sticks with you all day. But your right, tomorrow will be better - And hopefully, so will today.
Kelly K

I don't recognize lows in that range very well. I REALLY feel 50-80 but 28-50? Not so much.

Wishing you better. xo.

This is something I fear every night when I am trying to go to sleep.
I know that my A1c would be lower if I didn't load up on carbs before bed to avoid exactly what you are sharing happens to you when you are working on tighter control.

I'm so sorry about your low. Those lows are the worst. I am, however, impressed that you brush your teeth after your middle of the night lows. I never do that. I'm so wiped out, I honestly don't even think about it. I'm sure I've gotten a few cavitites because of it. :)

I love the "sweet, minty hybrid that tastes like failure" description. I know that taste so well!

Sorry for your rough night, tomorrow will be better!

I'm right there with ya sister. Low at 12:30am, 2:00am & 4:30am. REALLY??? Ugh. Today is chock full of suck.

I'm about to go on a pump, and I saw a dermatologist first since I've had problems with skin reactions in the past. He prescribed biafine, which is supposed to help wounds heal fast and recommended washing with Cetaphil gentle skin cleanser.

Of course, he also thought initially that I was getting an artificial pancreas...

In your trials of adhesive products. Have you tried "Skin Tac" wipes to help keep the Dex sensor on (applied on skin before placing sensor)? Or the Dexcom Shower Cover (it is an adhesive patch to place over the sensor)? The shower cover lasts about a week for me without a serious sweaty workout.

Have you tried duct tape on the skin first and the sensor on top of that? they make cute duct tape now too. :)

This account is what makes me crazy with worry!

That awkward moment when you realize you cleared out your fridge during a black-out, robot low.

The courage with which you are facing the blood sugar lows is praiseworthy. The concluding lines where you spoke of a better tomorrow focus on your optimism. Along with other key aspects of diabetic care, this positive mindset is also very relevant. Just stick to it and things will surely improve.

Kerri, You have such a gift for sharing your worst experiences in a way that is supportive and affirming to your pwd readers. And with such humor! Thank you for making a huge difference in my life!

Atta girl. Tomorrow is always another day, despite the nightmare of a previous one. I tell myself that when I have a really bad (high or low) day.

Kerri - Of all the topics you write about none hit me as hard as your descriptions of really bad lows. Your uncannily accurate descriptions of the mental and emotional impact of these events ellicit very strong emotions in me. There's a feeling of shared grief - an acknowledgement that I am not the only one to have such terrifying experiences with such alarming frequency. How ironic that the miracle drug we depend upon to keep us alive can cause us so much harm. I recently started the process of acquiring a diabetic alert dog who will accompany me everywhere and promises to detect lows (and highs) far in advance of my trusty yet imperfect Dexcom. Hopefully the promise lives up to the hype.

You might try finding an ostomy nurse to get help with the adhesive/sensitive skin issues. These nurses take care of people who require adhesive 24/7, and probably have many tools and ideas to help. You might try this link: http://www.wocn.org/default.asp?page=Nurse_Referral.
Best, Leah

Our 'miracle drug' - "insulin" that keeps us alive also kills 5% of us... we NEED, and Have to be very careful as a PWD on insulin :( Now just imagine all you non-diabetics... even if insulin does not kill us, what type of major ''Suffering'' will we endure in our life- times as a result of using Insulin??? Insulin is not a cure!!

I'm right there with ya'! After 30 years with this disease, I don't feel my lows anymore. I got a Dexcom recently and am hoping it helps me. I delivered a perfectly happy and healthy baby July 2011 and I have to be here for her,

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